I used to think that I had to know myself more deeply in order to cultivate a connection with something “greater” than myself. I didn’t realize that, for me, allowing myself to become an open vessel for love and light would also create space for me to expand my deeper (“self”) awareness. I still struggle with trying to find external things such as people, places, and events to distract me from myself; and so I create beliefs about life to hedge my vulnerabilities. My beliefs (thoughts) keep me small, distracted and disconnected.

I still hold onto two juxtaposing beliefs, and vacillating between both keeps me “busy” and separate from my Divine. I have a deeper sense, some would call it a knowing, that there is more to life than the physical reality we are experiencing. I believe that there are multiple dimensions and that this life affords us the opportunity to learn not to “react” to life, but rather allow life to flow as it should. Ideally, we would live life emitting love and acceptance without attachments. In my times of feeling a deeper connection, I know that my thoughts and subsequent manifestations will guide me to the abundance in all areas of life I crave.

But here in lies the double sided coin, I also worry (a lot!) about things I cannot change. These thought patterns guide me to think in the “scarcity” mentality. I worry I won’t feel loved deeply, I worry I won’t cultivate my own passion, and ultimately my passion to help others will not “grow”. I worry that I will always worry (and thus live unhappily!). The juxtaposition between these ideas occurs since I believe in more than this reality while still clinging to the outdated notions of “scarcity” in this lifetime. I realize that these differing views cause me to feel stuck, lonely and depressed and from these negative states I cannot manifest (or access in myself) my true authentic desires. While at a small gathering the other day, a gentleman stood up and said, “both miracles and fears come from thoughts”. It finally hit home that it’s our thoughts that prevent us from feeling the connection with something greater than ourselves.

I realized it’s just a shift in our thoughts that changes our perceptions. I guess the old saying is true, “what you believe in gives it power”. I keep my scarcity mentality alive because I continue to believe in it, I continue to “think” about the scarcity that I am perceiving. The shift in perception, or the miracle, arises when I change my thoughts.  This does not mean that I will not hit any “negative” thought road bumps, it means that when the fear arises, I just don’t listen to it. Yes, easier said than done, but if I understand that this shift in thoughts will shift my perception and then ultimately my beliefs around abundance, then it’s something I must do even if it’s scary.I must remember that fear is the state of “not” love.

This is where the importance of the connection to the Divine arises. This is the ultimate connection to unconditional love, which is the opposite of fear. If I can develop a deeper relationship with my Divine, then I am able to become more attuned to when I am not feeling love (deeper self awareness). This allows me to make a quicker shift, which will bring me back in alignment with my deeper self and lead me to live more authentically.

My thoughts created my reality (my perceptions) and ultimately a deeper connection with my Divine will lead me to look at things with love and light. This will ultimately release my attachment to my “scarcity” mentality (or fears/anxiety) since my connection with the Divine fills me with the unconditional love I crave. When I can embody love and truly feel that deeper connection, then I can approach life from a deeper level of creation/abundance.

“What ever we embrace eventually reveals the place we have been seeking.” -Gangaji